Missing You..

I had no idea I felt/feel for him so deeply.

As soon as he extracted himself from my life, I felt the void.

The past two days have been hell. Full of tears, questioning and downright depression. I wasn't eating. I've been chainsmoking, drinking and sleeping. I've been an emotional wreck. Even people who barely know me commented on my zombie like state.

I can't shake him from my thoughts. I miss him tremendously. Everything that reminds me of him makes me cry.

I cried at the sight of a red car the other day. Yesterday I had to pull over to cry so I could complete my 20 minute drive home.

The first time I met him he told me he would not hurt me. He lied. He really lied.

I've lost myself. But im gaining me back.

I love him much more than I knew.