"I'm a mess" - anthony hamilton

I'm an emotional wreck.

I can't control my emotions like I used to.

Yesterday we were both really frustrated.

I choose not to assume anything and he thinks he's given me cause to assume everything.

He took my consideration for his fatigue as me not wanting to see him. He took his misunderstanding out on me.

I did 25 over the speed limit on the way home, got in the bed and noticed my hands were shaking. I was literally trembling, shook emotionally.

I had to turn my phone off to resist answering when he called because I knew the sound of his voice had/has the power to dramatically shift my mood and yesterday I wasn't positive it would have been for the better.

The situation was in no way as serious as my reaction. I believe suppression is catching up with me fiercely.

I can admit that I care for him. And there are things I appreciate about him.

I never thought he would be who he is to me.

I'm trying to figure out what that is exactly.

I could love him.